couldn't think of a clever title for this post because i'm all out of clever. the mere fact that i'm blogging might be enough for now. since i don't keep a written journal, today le blog will have to do. sometimes i just need to write to make sense of all my thoughts, although i very much appreciate that some of you actually read my lengthy, all over the place and spotty posts. buckle up groove bunnies, this is one of them.
this weekend i was feeling a lot. no escaping it, updates on sandy's devastation are everywhere. to give you perspective, sandy was category 1, katrina was 5. people are suffering and it's heartbreaking. i feel guilty that i was spared. but again, i'm thankful.
i'm worried about the election. climate change, women's rights, education, marriage equality, the distribution of wealth, the shrinking middle class...worried that not enough people are invested and that they won't vote. or that they can't. the 2000 election debacle is still fresh in my mind and with this being a close race, the threat of shenanigans seems real.
i worked this weekend. work, in general, has slowed down and i think this was my last event of the season. was happy to have a constructive outlet for all my weird energy. getting to market on friday was a small adventure. despite the gas shortage, power outages and driving restrictions and because of friends, specifically, suzanne of cocorosie and denise of denise fasanello design, i made it in. from one half of the brooklyn bridge to the 20s, new york was a scary ghost town and then...flowers. overbought as usual, this time because i knew getting back in would be difficult. was so happy for the surplus. amidst all the destruction and emptiness of the storm's aftermath, it was lovely to have beautiful hellebores, roses, ranunculus, carnations, peonies and anemones around me.
delivering the event flowers was also an adventure and i called my superhero dad to save the day. my parents have lived and learned and are well-versed in all matters hurricane/tropical storm so the first thing they did last sunday was fill up their tank and get water. and like obi wan kenobi, daddy was my only hope. driving to the venue, i saw massive lines of people and cars for gas. guilt crept in again as we zoomed past but again, gratitude pushed it away. got treated to dinner, halloween candy, provisions from costco and laughs. doesn't get better than that.
really trying to make arrangements with leftover flowers instead of my usual let them mildew and die in their buckets. found a creepy crawly in this morning's blackberries and now i'm wondering how many i've ingested and what they're doing inside of me. guess i'll end on that note.
hope you are safe, healthy and warm, or cool, if that's more comfortable where you are...x